No.1

Nobody told me Paris could be depressing. That it could be a cold, gray, unfriendly, even boring place.

I have been feeling so weird lately. I feel like I should do something very important but I just can't put my finger on it. Maybe I should start looking for a new job? It's too early for that, though. I have already done all I can to find a new appartement and I should be getting a phone call tomorrow from one of the agents. Maybe I should clean up this flat? I want to do it with my room mate though. Take the trashes out? Finish my book? Do the dishes?

Me and my roomie, we have been looking for this flat in the 5th arrondissement. It's a two-room appartement, very small but beautiful, 870 euros/month. The agent told us he'd call us today or tomorrow if we got it or not and this waiting is just killing me. It really is a lovely, lovely little flat, with a weird tiny shower in the kitchen and huge mirrors in the bedroom. The location is perfect, only a couple of metro stations away from our jobs and not too many tourist attractions. I lived around there before and I can tell you that the 5th is one of my favourite areas in Paris. It's calm, lots of families in there. Although I don't really like kids, in fact I absolutely loath them but the Jardin Des Plantes is very nice for a Sunday stroll and Rue Mouffetard is the perfect place to go out, in fact, every night.

I'm feeling so lonely right now, J doesn't seem to have lots of interest in me after all, eventhough the last time we saw was pretty magnificent. I was talking to B and he seemed more excited about me than J ever, eventhough B lives in a (not so) far-away country for god's sake! Also J2 keeps sexualy harrassing me in MSN, demanding naked pictures and all that. I can't decide if I like it or not.. Well, he lives even further away than B, so it's pretty much only an amusing game which gives him wet dreams and more self-esteem for me. My roomie, who is actually my best friend too, went over to her boyfriend and left me here with a pack of pasta and some ketchup. Party time, don't you think?

I'm hoping tomorrow will be as warm as today